I got rejected from St. John's College, Oxford for Law with Spanish Law a couple of weeks ago.
I went through the whole "**** YOU OXFORD I NEVER WANT TO ****ING GO NEAR YOU AGAIN I WORKED MY ARSE OFF YOU DICKS" phase and now I've come out on the other side, and I'm wondering: should I go for it again?
I got my feedback from the college:
- LNAT score was good (on a scale of very poor to excellent)
- LNAT essay was very good (on a scale of very poor to excellent)
- Interview was good (on a scale of very poor to very good)
- GCSEs were excellent.
Now I know that I could have done a LOT better and interview, and that the LNAT essay I wrote was one of my worst. I've got it into my head that if they considered my LNAT essay to be a 'very good' one and I managed a 'good' interview on 2 hours of sleep, then with more experience and preparation, I could do myself proud?
The college held me and two other candidates back for further interviews, but then we never got any.
Another issue is college choice. I made the wrong one. I had a horrible interview week. No sleep, my room felt like a prison, I felt like I was constantly trying to impress everyone I met there (I actually spent 3 hours sitting in the cupboard in my room before an interview hyperventilating) and then everyone I actually made friends with (bar one person) got rejected. I know which college I'd go for next time around, and I know that the tutors' research interests are what I'm really interested in too.
I don't know whether I'm just genuinely not suited to the place/course/teaching style, or that I am and my nerves completely ruined it for me.
I have an offer from King's College London, and an offer for Law with Hispanic Law at UCL, and I'm waiting on LSE and Warwick. UCL would be my firm if I didn't reapply, because they're giving me a year in Madrid, and I really love the atmosphere there
The courses on offer at the London unis appeal to me more than the Oxford one, but I know that prestige matters a lot in the field of law :/
Is it my stupid sense of pride that's getting in the way?
Should I be happy with the offers I have?
Sorry for the essay guys, if anyone's in a similar position then hit me up! And, if any of you have any words of advice it'd be greatly appreciated
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