I've become utterly apathetic. A role model for others;a failed person in my own eyes

Hey all,

Will try to be less specific on details, but will explain the situation. At this stage any comment might help. Don't take the first paragraph as bragging because I'm stating the facts.

I finished one of world's most prestigious universities where I got through working hard (I come from a pretty low-income family and got a full scholarship to cover my studies due to multiple academic achievements at school), participated/organised/led more than two scores of various youth conferences and right now I have a job at one of the most selective organisations in the world (salary is not great, but it's an organisation where a lot of people want to intern/work).

On top of that I'm attending all sorts of events and receptions where I get invited, etc.

I'm also very lucky with women - at least on a superficial level to bed them easily.

Basically, in the eyes of a lot of people, I'm a role model. Parents of other students show use me as example of success, colleagues and acquaintances are impressed with my job and professional achievement given my age, and friends are just amazed at various girls they see me making out with, etc. In a nutshell, many people see my public life/photos and are genuinely jealous of my life.

And I'm grateful for what I have, or try to be.

But ultimately and especially more recently, I've become more apathetic to everything in my life, to an extent that I am feeling dumb and indifferent to everything. Right now I'm applying for Master's and all professionals/academics around me predict that I can easily get into [insert name of any top-5 world uni here] easily with a scholarship, etc. But I cannot even write a proper personal statement, because my worldview right now is "I don't give a ****". I know I will regret it, if I drop things now, so I'm pushing forward with my application, but the problem is that at this stage neither my lifestyle, nor my job, nor my personal life, nor my academic achievements give me any satisfaction. And ultimately I don't know what I want to be in my life. Everything gets very boring/disappointing after a while (here it's both professional and personal)

I don't want to be a morose ******* and I worked a lot to reach where I am right now, so I just don't understand what's happening and how to solve this.

I'm 21 now and this condition of mine has been increasing in intensity for the last year or so, but in the last 1-2 months it's become quite worrying and I just hope it won't get worse.

Any comments would be gratefully read.

Thanks.

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