I'm 19 and am currently in a relationship with a girl who I've been close friends with since we both started uni this year. In most ways, we have a lot in common, but there are certain differences between us that I find hard to deal with. For example, I feel like most of my actions and feelings are driven on impulse, whilst she's more of a 'head' person (the things she says and does usually seem premeditated). She rarely texts me when we're appart, unless I text her first - though I always do. I've also found that the less affection I show her, the more she shows me. Other things I've noticed are that any texts she replies to contain the exact same number of kisses as mine do - without fail. It sounds like a silly thing to mention, but it is something that makes me wonder
I'm trying to get my head around whether she feels as strongly for me as I do for her, but just expresses it differently, or whether she just likes the idea of being in a relationship and thinks that I'll suffice. It also makes me think that perhaps I'm just constantly paranoid and thus unfit to be in a relationship.
May I stress that I've never let on that I feel any of this. I'm very cautious of being considered needy or paranoid and I'd never let my insecurities be seen by her.