Dear you,
**** you. I wish I could say I was over you, since you met him, you have someone else to make you happy, you don't need me, you only talk to me when he's not around or when you need your time away from him, I'm so ****ing sick of this, why did I choose to live with you, I can't deal with it anymore, Why should I cry over you when you don't give a damn if I'm crying. You never believed I cared anyway, I wish I never met you, my life would've been different. I wouldn't be that emotional mess I am now, I never used to cry, I'd cry if someone died, but that's as far as it'd ever go. You made me like this, you taught me to feel pain, to care so much that your words were enough to break me down. **** you 'friend'.
Just cause he's there to cheer you up you don't realise I need cheering up, you forget everything. All I asked was you if you wanted to make pancakes together, oh no? you don't want to? Well if he ****ing asked you you would've instantly made it. **** you for forgetting I existed the moment he walked in. I wish you could feel the pain you've made me feel. I used to be happy being single, I never needed a boyfriend I didn't need anyone, but now I feel like I am missing out, like I'll never be happy. Thanks for that, thanks for making me third wheel and feel uncomfortable in my home, thanks for going to sleep mad at me, yet if it was him you'd work it out no matter what. I never wanted to share you, I'd rather not have you at all. I'll show you this message one day, I used to thank God that I'd met you, now I sit here regretting everytime I thanked God, it was more of a curse than a blessing I just didn't realise it. **** you once again for just being that selfish childish bestfriend I would cross rivers for, you would've never have done anything close to that for me. Wish I realised when I was 15. 6 years on I'm still sat here hurting inside because of you.
I love you deep down and I wish I didn't. One day I'll get the courage to walk out and leave you, I was always too afraid to walk away in the past, partly because I knew you'd never come back for me.
love from 'dudhii'