UPDATE - Friday 29th April
Today has been a weird day. I'm extremely frustrated. We got our grade cards today, which show us our grade to date and our projected grade. I thought I'd share them with you now.
(BOLD is grade to date, Italics is projected grade)
Business Studies - CC
English Language - AA
English Literature - BB
German - AA
History - AA
ICT - CC
Maths - AA
Photography - BB+
Science Core - BA-
Science Additional - BB+
So, whilst these seem like okay and understandable grades (which most of them are) some of them make no sense to me. On my last grade card from about 4 weeks ago, I was getting an A in Business and I was projected an A*. I have done no other mock exams since then, and the few past papers we have done I have gotten at least a B, mostly an A on. Yet for some reason, my new grade is a C and I am projected a C. I spoke to my teacher about it and she said that the head of business went through changing everybody's grades. I'm not too sure what evidence he used to give me a C, but there you go.
As for ICT, my coursework is actually a solid B now so that grade is pretty invalid. My entire ICT course has been an absolute disaster, and trust me, it is impossible to complete a full GCSE course with only an hour a week. It makes me so angry to know that, with all the extra time and effort I put in, I'm still only just achieving a B, but there you go - that's the flawed school system for you.
It was very disheartening to be sitting around people who opened their grade cards and had nothing lower than a B, or had 4 or 5 projected A*s on their card. It's frustrating to put in so much effort and see no, maybe even negative, results. It's like the more work I put in, the worse my grades get.
Anyway, I've decided that these grade cards are stupid anyway and don't represent me. What represents my GCSE's is the grades I open on results day, and to get what I want and prove my teachers (and myself, in a way) wrong, I need to put in as much effort as I can.
Today, I did my maths homework and a Physics Unit 1 past paper, which I got 36/60 on (an A). I was happy with that but there is still a long way to go and things to work on.
I'm really sorry for the whiny rant, and I know my grades are good, it's just about my personal targets and things. I needed somewhere to get it off of my chest and I felt like this was the best place.
I will be happy on results day and I will prove my teachers wrong. I also need to stop comparing myself to others...