I am currently completing my PGCE school direct course and I am struggling to reason with myself that the academic portion of my course will benefit and help me in my teaching.
IT DOESN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is a MASSIVE JOKE!!!
My time is being wasted, my mental health being put at risk, my self-confidence is being destroyed and I have applied NONE of the theory to my practice. I am doing good within my teaching and showed great improvement between my 1st and 2nd placement. Yet, the university tutors are questioning my ability to teach (they have not seen me teach, my school mentor and alliance leaders have) because of my academic assignments. We had a 5000-word reflective assignment to complete based on a target we were given from our first placement. I was critical of my own practice and applied the theory they had 'taught' (We had one day workshop and the tutor spent more time talking about their home life) and yet it is not enough. I put theory within the essay, yet they are not pleased. Another assignment is based on a research project of our choice. I carry out the research, find the theories, yet they say the conclusions and findings made from my research are incorrect. I have to keep resubmitting things (which I have to pay for, even though I'm getting in £9250 worth of debt and receive no financial help). I just cannot deal with it sometimes.
It is taking valuable time away from my planning, resource making and lesson preparation. The help 'offered' is limited/non-existence, I have arranged phone tutorials with tutors, as my alliance is based an hour away from the university and I cannot drive there, the tutor has never picked up the calls. How is it possible for me to receive help if the tutors who tell me to seek guidance are not there when I contact them.
The university-based students receive help all the time because they are there on campus. The university needs to remember that we are there too. I am NOT failing this course and having my dream taken away from me because I am not an academic writer and my tutors do not agree with the findings and conclusions from MY research project. I think they have been out of the classroom way too long, have become engrossed in theory and forgetting that the students on this course are aiming to become teachers. Not educational theorists, if they did then they would go on an Educational Studies or Research course.
Teaching is a practical career, not a theoretical one. I just cannot see how academic work is helping me, I'm not even gaining skills relevant to teaching. Not reflective, critical thinking, behaviour management, subject knowledge, use of formative and summative assessment, working professionally.
I'm trying to be a teacher, working in a valued career. Universities need to remember or learn the difference between a teacher and a lecturer.