Healthy New You: Your Change For Life #2

Today, I turned down the chance of a beautiful 2 bedroomed apartment in the middle of town, perfect place, ideal for everything.. why did I turn it down? Because I know I'm not ready to live on my own right now. If I did, I'd eat myself into oblivion every night. Just eaten 500 cals worth of cookies because I'm on my own, which just proves my point. The self control it's taking not to eat another 500 cals is amazing, but I will do it. Luckily I hadn't eaten the whole of the day's food yet so it's left me at 1,500 cals. Happy with that (if I can stop).

I actually found it easier to eat well when living alone. I just don't buy the stuff. I need self control in different ways when alone and when at Mum's.

I have to have someone with me, because I eat through boredom. Always have done, that's why I gained so much when I was at uni. If I lived alone I'd get back up to 18 stone in no time, so I'm not doing it to myself, not yet. Hopefully soon I'll be able to trust myself, but after just one year of trying to change my ways I can't be sure that I wouldn't just slip straight back into old habits- particularly because I wouldn't be able to afford internet for a while so no MFP or TSR.

I have to have someone with me, because I eat through boredom. Always have done, that's why I gained so much when I was at uni. If I lived alone I'd get back up to 18 stone in no time, so I'm not doing it to myself, not yet. Hopefully soon I'll be able to trust myself, but after just one year of trying to change my ways I can't be sure that I wouldn't just slip straight back into old habits- particularly because I wouldn't be able to afford internet for a while so no MFP or TSR.

I haven't posted in a while, as I've been feeling very demotivated recently about my weight loss, it's taking all the strength within me right now, not to say 'Right, i've had enough, I give up.' Over the last 6 months or so I've been struggling with depression, and I'm finding denying myself the things I want, whilst feeling guilty about the things I do have, is making it even worse. I think I need a break from weight loss, but I'm scared if I do so, then I'll undo my hard work. I've only lost about 20lbs, but I really can't afford to put it back on. I'm feeling very lost, and I don't know what to do. Sorry for this rant, I just needed to get it out.

I'm all tearful and crap today At least I haven't comforted myself with food and have chosen Big Bang Theory instead! Dr Sheldon Cooper is a pretty good substitute for cookies.
Looking forward to a small treat tomorrow for my efforts (either a takeaway with friends or some chocolate/sweets!)

*Hugs* any particular reason why? Well done for not eating your troubles away.. unlike me with my cookies tonight!

Have you seen your doctor about your depression? I'd say that if dieting is making you miserable then you shouldn't be doing it, or at least find a way to solve things such as having a cheat day or making sure that you have at least one thing that you really like each day (for example I have a treat sized toffee crisp which are only 99 calories, or a penguin which aren't much more).

But 20lbs is fantastic to have lost, however long it took you. The fact is, you're 20lbs lighter than you were at the beginning, and that's a real achievement. Never give up. I know how you feel. As though the food in the house is absolutely screaming your name, but you're stronger than it. The more I think about it now, the more I realise that I had an eating disorder before I started losing weight and probably still do- but I'm in control of it now.. as are you. Don't let the food win. It doesn't make you happy, it makes you unhappy in the long term. We all know that on here, which is why we're here. Never give up. Remind yourself that you're worth it :-).

I'm all tearful and crap today At least I haven't comforted myself with food and have chosen Big Bang Theory instead! Dr Sheldon Cooper is a pretty good substitute for cookies.
Looking forward to a small treat tomorrow for my efforts (either a takeaway with friends or some chocolate/sweets!)

Welcome to the thread, Sauce!

And, I hope things are okay

Thanks for taking the time to reply Yeah, I went to the doctors a few months ago and she diagnosed me with depression. I'm currently having counselling too, but it doesn't seem to be doing much. I've already tried having a cheat day, it doesn't really work with me, as rather than just having a little bit of what I fancy, I end up binging and I genuinely cannot seem to control it! I might try buying something like penguin bars though Thankyou! I think that’s my major problem: I don't think I'm worth it. My confidence and self esteem is absolutely at rock bottom, and I have voices which consistently tell me I'm useless and worthless, many times a day.

Thanks for the warm welcome, things are going to get better and they will for you too

Persevere with the counselling, it can really help just to talk things through even though we might not realise it at the time, I know that from personal experience! Self esteem issues suck. Do your family know how you're feeling? I find talking to my Mum is really helpful when I'm feeling down. Keeping myself busy helps too, even if it's just reading a book or meeting up with a friend.. obv I don't know your situation so sorry if I'm being nosy/pushy or whatever.. just don't want anyone on this thread feeling bad :-(.