Things have been a bit dead in the water with my boyfriend for a while now, I tried to break up with him about a month ago but he begged me for another chance, and nothing has really changed.
Last night I went to a pub with all my close home friends and to cut a long story short, me and one of the group got on like a house on fire and talked for ages outside about love and life and it was obvious he was interested.
We walked home together and when we came to part I kissed on on the cheek, and this is so cringey, but he went in to kiss me properly and I kind of pecked him on the lips and then slapped him on the chops and said 'that's all you're getting mate', and then walked off.
But I really wanted to kiss him and I feel like i'm cheating anyway even if I didn't kiss him because I've spend all day thinking about him. He's going back to uni far away today and isn't coming back till easter, and i'm just full of thoughts about how i should let him know i like him, if i should and thinking I cant possibly go till april without seeing him. I've never really looked at him that way before but now I can't help myself. I've looked up how much train tickets would be if I went to see him for goodness sake.
I know I need to break up with my boyfriend, it's obviously done with if I am so beguiled by someone else.
Advice please?