Contemplating sending an email to my ex.

I'm just so hurt at the moment. Basically I'm 20 and he's 18 and we've been in an LDR for two years, I've known him for 3 years. Anyway, we had some issues and he didn't feel like trying anymore and instead just being friends. I could sense his heart wasn't in it anymore so I ended it because I couldn't just be friends, he didn't seem fussed at all. A week later I felt like I was too drastic in my decision and told him we should talk about it in a mature way because I just don't know how someone can change so quickly and feel nothing at all. He used to say he loved me and could imagine spending the rest of his life with me. So we talked and he said it's just wasting time and we have too many issues. I said I understand, I didn't understand at all but I didn't want to seem irritating so I told him I wouldn't waste any more of his time.

Now I'm just angry, it's been a week since he said that we're just wasting time. I think my anger is fuelled by other family issues I'm having and I wrote an email basically telling him he's selfish and pathetic for telling me he doesn't care about me (his words). It takes me so long to trust people, I've never really opened up to anyone, and when he told me he liked me two years ago I never fathomed liking anyone, I was never interested in relationships or the sort and now I've allowed myself to open up to this one dbag who's just dropped me. He knew that I had trust issues and he invested time in getting to know me, he said he liked me when we first met but he still played out the 'friend' routine with me for a year because he knew through some other friends that I don't really frequent the dating scene.. and it just hurts that he put so much effort once upon a time and now he can't even take the time out to talk to me for an hour. Aggggghhh, I haven't sent the email. It's just sitting in my drafts, I want to though. It might make me feel better. I've not been angry about this ordeal, just sad and now all the anger is trying to pour out and I feel pretty mad at myself for trusting in the first place.

I guess I'd understand if it was anything else, but the fact he just randomly lost interest and care for me when we used to talk every single day hurts 10x more. There isn't another girl either afaik.

It's been 3 weeks since we broke up, he seems fine and here I am asking for advice as an anon on TSR. Ugh, yes I need validation as to whether I should send the email. This is so pathetic, but I still miss him and I don't know what to do.

No offense

This will help you

Don't send the email it's a negative spiral, work on yourself so you can have a good time in the future. Transform your negative energy into motivation to change.

Good luck

Trust me, I know I'm clingy and insecure. This is the exact reason why I didn't want to be in a relationship. I become a liability. He knew this and thought I was being silly because I never seemed clingy to him. He used to say stupid stuff like "How are you still single, you're so beautiful" blah blah.. and I told him my personality sucks that's probably why. He just used to laugh it off.

Idk. I need to get a hobby or something.. I don't want to harbour negative feelings for him but I just don't get how he doesn't udnerstand what he did was horrid.

I'm just so hurt at the moment. Basically I'm 20 and he's 18 and we've been in an LDR for two years, I've known him for 3 years. Anyway, we had some issues and he didn't feel like trying anymore and instead just being friends. I could sense his heart wasn't in it anymore so I ended it because I couldn't just be friends, he didn't seem fussed at all. A week later I felt like I was too drastic in my decision and told him we should talk about it in a mature way because I just don't know how someone can change so quickly and feel nothing at all. He used to say he loved me and could imagine spending the rest of his life with me. So we talked and he said it's just wasting time and we have too many issues. I said I understand, I didn't understand at all but I didn't want to seem irritating so I told him I wouldn't waste any more of his time.

Now I'm just angry, it's been a week since he said that we're just wasting time. I think my anger is fuelled by other family issues I'm having and I wrote an email basically telling him he's selfish and pathetic for telling me he doesn't care about me (his words). It takes me so long to trust people, I've never really opened up to anyone, and when he told me he liked me two years ago I never fathomed liking anyone, I was never interested in relationships or the sort and now I've allowed myself to open up to this one dbag who's just dropped me. He knew that I had trust issues and he invested time in getting to know me, he said he liked me when we first met but he still played out the 'friend' routine with me for a year because he knew through some other friends that I don't really frequent the dating scene.. and it just hurts that he put so much effort once upon a time and now he can't even take the time out to talk to me for an hour. Aggggghhh, I haven't sent the email. It's just sitting in my drafts, I want to though. It might make me feel better. I've not been angry about this ordeal, just sad and now all the anger is trying to pour out and I feel pretty mad at myself for trusting in the first place.

I guess I'd understand if it was anything else, but the fact he just randomly lost interest and care for me when we used to talk every single day hurts 10x more. There isn't another girl either afaik.

It's been 3 weeks since we broke up, he seems fine and here I am asking for advice as an anon on TSR. Ugh, yes I need validation as to whether I should send the email. This is so pathetic, but I still miss him and I don't know what to do.