...I'm not talking about actual gas-lighting, but more from a Social Sciences/Psychological standpoint...
Has anyone ever experienced this in their significant other/partner/spouse?
I feel that my partner is up to no good- infidelity/cheating. For a while, I've had this gut feeling that won't go away. I just can't trust her for some reason- think its instinctual, and while I have no 100% proof or evidence, I've noticed small inconsistencies and things that just don't 'add up'.
She guards her phone, and regularly covers her phone screen with objects, places them strategically around it. This was after I prompted to her that she always used to put her phone face down-- now,I notice she places it face up but in positions that are covert. Whenever I bring it up, I'm made to feel like I'm been paranoid.
I feel like I am going crazy- because she has said stuff in the past- and I've sworn blind to myself that she has said such things, to then have them twisted and convoluted. Needless to say, I end up apologising all the time and feeling guilty.
I just have this deep feeling something is up, she goes off radar for periods at a time, explaining them away that she is going to run errands. She then appears offline and when I message her she responds immediately. Its almost as though shes changed her facebook settings-- to appear offline. I then bring it up, and she once again tells me "its because shes on her mobile".
I just have this feeling it won't go away. Subconsciously I feel shes pushing buttons for me. I feel like I'm losing my identity.
What can I do to protect myself? I'm moving in with her soon-- I don't know if its me going insane, paranoid or just something untoward happening.