Omg, we are in exactly the same boat rn but I’m gonna try in my mocks just because I need to get away from my family ASAP lol.
The most important thing tho is sorting out your mental health, if it continues to decline then your life kinda starts to feel like it’s not your life that your living and you’re just existing and we don’t want that because once you get there you get too close to using a permanent solution for a temporary problem... But I feel you about not wanting to regret it later, but even if you do start to regret it’s not a big deal because you could easily just do a levels as an independent candidate, you’d have to pay out of pocket though, unless you find a college or sixth form that would take you.
I understand you 10000% about living in poverty, it sucks bro but me personally I take refuge in the fact that there’s so many paths to financial freedom (these days everyone blows upon social media
, social média marketing, stocks, you could even become the next pablo Escobar 😂😂 ) if the whole school thing doesn’t work out you knowww, we actually have our whole lives ahead of us what ever happens now it’s not that deep we should just enjoy life bc we could actually die tomorrow. We just don’t know lol
Also a tip for helping your mental health that have worked for me is saying positive affirmations in the mirror until you believe them and/or getting a notebook for you where you just write about everything, your hopes n dreams, accomplishments, things that suck,literally anything - it is so freeing...Only after a while tho at first you kinda feel silly and only write somewhat important things or things you wouldn’t normally tell other people and then it becomes a habit n lowkey the only thing you trust ahahahah jk
N remember the key to a good life is being positive, no bs or nothing when you’re positive you attract more positivity and good thingS into your life - law of attraction, look into it if you’re open minded I guess lol and good luck I wish you all the best
Tough times never last