I have a girlfriend for the past 3 years, and we have a stable relationship, we came through many obstacles and learned to work as a couple. I love her and she does as well, I have no doubts neither does she, not anymore. In my past I was a bit of a man ***** but not too much, enough for my girl to be a bit protective at the start and all but we worked through it. The thing is I keep thinking of this 1 girl, beautiful but she treated me like hell(I didnt notice it that much because of all the emotions but looking back at it she wasnt nice to me and I would say almost emotionally abused me), we liked eachother back then and grown to know eachother for quite some time,we kissed and we hung out and we made it sexual all the time and she was fine with it. fast forward a year we came to complications and arguments and we came to block eachother without any closure. I stood my ground whenever she stared at me at school and even shaked it off like nothing bothered me. When we blocked eachother i was spending my time with the girl that is now my girlfriend and she helped me through the distress, she knew how much she hurt me and emotionally destroyed me. All comes to the point im trying to make, I cant stop thinking about her and sometimes i get dreams of me and her getting to see eachother and talking it out and see where we are at. I would love to talk about this with my girl but I know for a fact it will not end well and make her overthink so many things. i dont want to put her in that horrible state of mind because things are good. I feel like this is the pain of not having any closure, we really liked eachother aswell i dont doubt it but as teenagers(18,19..) its hard to make the right decisions and talk it out.
What would you do in this situation, maybe any advice. Its quite a burden and sometimes I think “what if she thinks of me as much as i do of her” since we are all human and we all need closure of some kind.
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