Hey everyone! I’ve recently (in the last few days) fallen into a state of panic over which uni course I want to apply for.
For the last few months I’ve been set on History and French at either Oxford or Cambridge- deciding which university was the big decision I had to (and still need to) make.
However, moments of doubt keep creeping in where I feel like I should possibly be applying for History of Art instead. One of my favourite sectors of history is fashion history, and Art History may allow me to explore this element. I also do art at school so remaining in touch with my creative skills would be nice. Although I wonder if this sudden doubt is also caused by my own stress about taking either the MLAT or Cambridge’s at-interview language assessment. I love the French language, and desperately want to become good it and study French literature, but there’s no denying that my history skills are better than my language skills and so I feel a sense of non-legitimacy about applying for French. Basically I don’t feel good enough, and am wondering if I would be better applying for a different course instead.
As I’m not able to do anything without overthinking, I’ve made a pros and cons list for each course.
History and French- Pros
-I know the tripos system at Cambridge allows students to ‘borrow’ papers (unsure if this is the case for Oxford), meaning I could hypothetically take some of the HOA papers whilst still doing other areas of History and also French
-Less limiting in the type of History I can study as I’m also interested in social/cultural history and when it ties into fashion I like looking at the interaction between the two
-Even though my language skills aren’t as strong I do really want to explore French literature and culture and become good at the language
-The Year abroad seems like a fascinating experience
-My original motivation for choosing this course was my love for French history specifically (although in my opinion it’s hard to have Western fashion history without France)
History of Art- Pros
-Opportunity to interact with and study museum pieces
-Could possibly orient my studies towards fashion history in later years
-May be a better foundation for going into a fashion history related masters course and as my ideal career would be a Fashion/Dress Historian or Archivist in a museum of dress
-For Oxford specifically one of the special subjects involves conservation, which really interests me
-Combination between my fondness for practical art and academic study
History and French- Cons
-My French ability may be a barrier to me getting in altogether
-I may have to turn away from the creative side of things
-If I chose to apply to Oxford I wouldn’t be able to do a dissertation, which would mean no research on a topic of my choosing
History of Art- Cons
-Possibly more limiting in terms of further career/study options
-I wouldn’t be able to also study French (I know both universities have language centres, but it’s not the same)
-My interests lie mainly in the dress/textiles realm, so I’m worried if that didn’t end up being an area I could focus on, I wouldn’t enjoy the course as much
-From a social perspective it seems to be considered a rich person's degree, and as someone who isn’t super rich I’m worried about wasting my time studying something I enjoy but can’t use (even If I do want to go into research professionally)
The most ideal course would be an amalgamation of all 3, which unfortunately doesn’t exist. If anyone would be able to give me some advice to help determine my next path or provide some insight it would be greatly appreciated.