I have recently started at a sixth form college, population four thousand, a huge number compared to my tiny senior school, and I am feeling squashed.
Someone who I consider my best friend, (though now I am very apprehensive, I am not so sure she wants to be my close friend anymore), is also going with me, but we are in different classes, so only really see each other when we meet up at breaks or lunch, involving one of us calling or texting to see where the other is.
I feel I have been doing this more than she has.
Am I being too clingy? I have no idea.
I messaged her on Facebook to ask how something was, (a lesson she had), at about 4, and its 11, she's been active and there is no response.
Okay, that does sound really clingy. I'm not usually like this I swear, but I don't want to be left on my own, I'm feeling so miserable.
She seems to already be making friends, and I am not very good at this. I think I may suffer from some form of people repellent. Am I ugly? Her and her new friends all look prettier than me. Not bitter, can't be helped.
Do I suffer from anxiety? Maybe, I have been told I am over anxious in the past.
But I have tried to talk to people in my lessons, they just already seem to be in friendship groups.
In your experience, how long does it take to make friends in sixth form, or am I just a weirdo? I am writing this very late at night, take note, so I probably sound more strange than usual.
Thanks X