I feel ****. There's literally nothing to do. Apparently the few flatmates left on my floor were all watching Friends in someone's room this afternoon with the door shut. That made me feel a bit sad. If the door had been left open, I would've gone in and asked to join them. But cos it was shut, I felt a bit awkward, like they didn't want anyone else there.
Meh.
People are so stressful.
Everyone makes their little groups and I'm always left on the outside, no matter how hard I try.
Three girls who I'm a bit friendly with have gone home/gone to visit boyfriends this weekend and there's just one girl left I like whose parents have been with her all day and she's in the other kitchen now with the girls on her course. She's doing Primary with SEN so a different course and don't really like the girls she's with.
I'm trying not to bother myself about it. There are nice people on my course. That's the important thing. If I don't make any significant friendships, it's not the end of the world, is it? I just have to get through these three years. It'll be ok.
It's all mind control. I must stop myself feeling lonely and unwanted and I train myself not to care. I can do it.