Well. This is a post I never thought I'd make, but here we are.
Anyways, for those who are still in the fitness area and somehow are still around, hello. For those who are new and want to read content that went from over 10 years, hi I guess?
I'm writing this mostly because when I wrote this blog 9 years ago, I did it with the intention of me losing weight, gaining muscle and keeping the weight off. Rather than me doing a full monologue, I'll just summarise what happened:
End of 2012: Had a BMI of over 33, was over 100 kg, realised that I needed to probably make a change
Beginning of 2013: TSR had a comp that involved both weight loss and muscle categories. I chose to enter the weight loss category
April 2013: I do quite strict calorie counting, lose 2 stone, but honestly I'm miserable as ****
2013 - 2014: Over this time, I put quite a bit of the weight back on, finish my undergrad, have a nervous breakdown, lose all motivation for both fitness and diet. Still doing Jitsu but can't at the rate I want to due to injury.
2014 - 2015: Chip at some of the weight but nothing at the same rate as 2013. Get onto my PhD programme, quit smoking (lol)
2015 - 2018: Get my weight down by a stone, due to me training quite aggressively doing Jiu Jitsu. But a mixture of drinking, bad eating and poor sleep means that my weight loss isn't sustainable
2019: Maintain a weight of around 85 kg, have knee surgery to fix knee cap (caused my slut dropping too hard, don't ask) submit my PhD thesis, weight creeps back to 95 kg
2020: Get told that I'm pre-diabetic, joins a gym
March 2020: Panasonic begins (i.e. COVID), lose motivation
July 2020: Best mate dies of a heart attack, leads to my getting my **** together
September 2020: Begins rock climbing and starts listening to PT more. Notices that I'm getting stronger and losing the weight
January 2022: Notice I've begun looking more toned, but decides to take cut a bit more seriously and joins a gym to compliment climbing
Now: In this time I've dropped back to 85 kg, but feel so strong and less miserable.
I guess this timeline is for my former self really. Yes, weight loss is important. Yes, health is important. But putting yourself through pain will never work out. Not taking into account life stresses will not work out. Sometimes you can turn tragedy into a chance to focus on yourself. I'm now at the point where I'm approaching the weight that I was in March 2013. However, unlike then when I lost that weight through aggressive dieting and extreme cardio, here I'm focusing on gains, getting stronger climbing and overall am in a happier place. I'm also appreciating the now and I'm so proud of my journey till now, no matter how many bumps I've hit.
If this post helps anyone, I'm really glad. My advice to everyone is to be happy with where you are, focus on doing things for yourself and try to not let anyone else's progress stop you from being your best self.
Peace,
SB x