Alright, so as I'm sure you can imagine, I'm quite literally raging at this news. It's more so annoying when it's, in my opinion, a specific attack on me ...
Firstly, let me tell you the grades I'm expecting/teachers are expecting me to receive on my upcoming GCSE's:
English Lang: A*
English Lit: A*
Citizenship: A*
Media Studies: A*
ICT: A*
History: A
Business: A
Core Science: B (Already banked)
Additional Science: B
RE: B (Already banked. Sat exam in Year 9)
Everything is going alright. The expectations are, admittedly, rather high and maybe overly ambitious - but nevertheless, it's what people think I'm capable of. I'm not really sure if I am capable of such grades, but all I can do is try, I guess.
You may have noticed I didn't state my maths grade. I'm embarrassed to admit this on here, considering you're all so intelligent, but my current maths grade is an E. Awful, I know.
I try so hard in this subject, but I'm not getting anywhere. To go from getting A*'s to an E in a core subject is horrible. I just don't understand maths, at all.
I was told today that I (along with others who have at least ONE E grade) will not be getting study leave. I'm furious. I won't be able to revise and consolidate my B/A/A* grades, as I'll be in school. I have to continue with my same time table also. For example, I'll be attending English lessons (despite being an A* grade) and revising for that subject, purely because of the low maths grade.
I cannot revise in school. The distractions are too hard to block out, and I fear that these so called 'revision sessions' turn into social sessions. I work well at home alone, in my room, focusing with maybe a bit of music or something.
The fact that I won't be able to do this for my subjects all because of one low grade really upsets me. The head of maths has actually told me, and I quote, 'I want your A* grades down to a C, if it means, as we do that, we get your Maths grade also up to a C'.
Basically... My good subjects are going to be jeopardised for maths, a subject that I have NO chance in getting a C grade in.
What do I do? Should I just not attend school and complete revision at home, as I wish? Note: I will be revising for maths at home too, of course. It's not a subject I ignore. I work hard for it, but never get anywhere. I just think it's grossly unfair that my entire set of GCSE qualifications look to be potentially destroyed, for what? A D grade in maths? Woohoo.
What would you do?