I just can't understand why this keeps happening. Please advise.
Here's the story: I'm in my first year of uni now and I'm loving every minute of it. I'm studying an amazing course and made several great friends, most of whom are female.... I have to accept that girls are just not interested in me like they are in other guys, and it's killing me inside.
Last year, on my gap year, I asked a few girls out and was rejected every time....
After every rejection, I've taken a step back and looked at what went wrong. ...It's not my attitude or appearance, as I try my best to come over as smooth, I take care of myself and I treat girls with the utmost respect. So then I really can't understand why they choose to go for the guys who, compared to me, are idiots (don't want to sound arrogant, but it's true).
I'm concerned about falling into depression (despite having plenty of friends and emotional support) because being more than just friends with a girl is so important to me, and I haven't kissed a girl in 7 years. Some would call me a social recluse because I don't drink, but I still go out regularly and enjoy myself in restaurants/bars/cinemas/whatever with my friends. I'm expected to drink myself silly to show others I can have a good time, which girls find attractive. It seems like girls only want to go out with me if we're with a group of other people - never ever alone with me. I'm always putting on a brave face, like I don't care about having a girlfriend, but in reality it's making me more and more miserable.
That's not the end of it: there seems to be a deep-rooted problem with the way girls are treating me at the moment.....They ask me something, I reply, then silence. Each girl takes about 3 months to reply to a text or phone call - unless I speak to them in person or they need something, in which case they will send me another message and the cycle starts again.
I'm starting to accept that I will be alone for the rest of my life, and no girl will ever see anything attractive in me in the way they do with other guys.
You want to know the worst part? I've never got past the kissing stage with a girl. I lost my virginity to a 35-year old escort last year.
PS. Cue neg reps! Haters gonna hate - but you will never understand.