Lol I don't even eat meat that necessarily says certified 'halal' (don't judge me pls) I'll eat halal meat but if there isn't halal meat around then meh, British meat is reared in a humane way IMO, there's no point saying meat is halal if it's treated badly then only the slaughtering is humane and killed in a halal way, it doesn't work like that. Some meat from halal butchers get their meat shipped and who knows how the animals were treated in another country with less animal welfare regulations.
Sorry off topic lol...
Tbh, your religion is between you and God, and for me I think being a kind person and just is far more weightier than being a horrible judgemental person and praying 5 times a day, you get me? Like what's the point of praying if you treat people an animals in a cruel way and you're just mean.
But with saying that, prayer is important but I think you just need to find a reason to pray you know? I'm not perfect with my prayer ngl sometims I don't bother, but when I get upset I just sit and reflect, eventually I just decide to pray. IMO prayer isn't prayer if you're just simply doing the motions.
If that's too much, then just focus on being a good person and just look into what Islam truly says on a basic level as opposed to all these minor things like 'how long should my beard be' or 'is makeup halal?' It's totally irrelevant. What matters is how you live your life and treat others around you, that's one of the fundamental ideas.
And tbh, the times where I slipped away the most is where I came back strongly and started to realise a few things. I'd rather not say but I've had seriously bad patches in my life honestly they still affect me now. But you know what, whether you want to believe god exists or not, it doesn't hurt to believe that there is a being who knows what's good for you and will guide and comfort you. Just believing that things would get better because god knows best helped me so much, and you know what, things did get better (before they got worse again lol) Worst case scenario you die and never exist again but at least you were a good person and you made a positive difference to the people around you.
I think you just need to discover things for yourself instead of feeling bombarded by what your parents, family or other people are telling you to believe.
Not sure where I was going with this post but I hope it was worth the read, was just sharing my opinion really.
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