anon, please. if this is in the wrong section (feeling it should be in fashion and beauty??) i'm sorry but i just wanted anon.
i am usually confident with my body, i am slim but i had big boobs which really got to me since they appeared, until the age of like 16... i was very self conscious about them especially in PE and i always thought everyone was laughing about them behind my back.. they probably weren't it was just paranoia.. also i had some "friends" calling me names when i was younger (won't go into it)... but that really affected my confidence... i didn't wear bikinis or anything because it just drew attention to them... i always felt they were the first thing people noticed about me...
they aren't HUGE, they are an F cup (i am not overweight)..
now i am very confident with my body (i am 18)... i don't purposfully wear "tight" clothes to show them off, but i think it's what suit me best, i do not like frumpy clothes.. so i wear tight or loose fitting clothes. most t-shirts come up tight on me anyway, i can't help it..
yesterday i was wearing my favourite top.. and my boobs look pretty massive in it... then i was walking past this group of kids (well 15 y/o) and one of them said "look she has big boobs"... and immediately all the old feelings came back and i felt really self conscious today.. why is this the only thing everyone notices?? i know they are big, so what? what does it matter? why does it have to be commented on?
but now i feel i have to cover up it this hot weather etc. or wear things that look crap on me but at least hide my size... because i feel otherwise it's all people will notice about me, all people will think of me.. i can't just not care about that because i don't want to be defined by my boobs.. i feel like my male teachers at college will notice too and i just find that thought a bit gross.
also, i feel like people have less respect for me because of their size.. like because my tops comes up tight and i have big boobs i am viewed as looking slaggy (??) or desparate for attention/try hard... even though if a girl with small boobs wore a top of the same tightness she would be fine..
it makes me feel like i want to disappear..