Hi eve
I know *precisely* how you are feeling ... I had my wobble of confidence the other day and it took me completely by surprise because, like you, I have been working towards this for the past 5yrs, will be the 1st of my family to undertake a degree and know that I will be a "mature", mature student adapting to a uni lifestyle. I will have to travel in because staying on campus was not an option because of my family circumstances. Like you, I suddenly felt overwhelmed that I had taken on something which may prove too much for me (will I cope with the workload/exams; will I be able to keep up with my peers; what if I should fail???).
Here's what I did to re-focus my thoughts:-
~ opened the Handbook and reviewed the learning outcomes of each module. Checked the books I already have to see if any of the subjects were in the index
and reminded myself to take one day at a time!
~ reminded myself that *everyone* is going to be "new, nervous and a touch neurotic" about the start of their journey
~ Took the pressure off myself regarding the expectations of friends and family; I am going for *me*; I can only do *my* best, according to *my* abilities. The
very worst that can happen is ... I'm not successful at this level of academic study. If that should be the case, that is not a failure per se, I gave it a go, I'll still have learned something, I'll still have my health, my family
~ Reminded myself of what I am going to uni for, what I hope to achieve and where I see myself 3 yrs *after* uni. (Remember, we're just embarking on a huge goal we set ourselves and we now have to look beyond that to the next goal and keep it in the back of our minds to motivate us through the sticky times).
It is going to be hard to be apart from your partner/best friend/greatest supporter. The beauty is, communications these days are pretty instantaneous with text and email - not perfect, or a substitute, but definitely a compensation.
You will not mess up
You've invested too much of yourself and your lifestyle to not give it your best shot. You will have tutors, study skills support, new friends, even counselling services available at uni to discuss any problems you may encounter.
Just take each day as it comes, accept that you will have highs and lows, some of the work will seem like a breeze, other pieces will be more of a challenge. You will be absolutely fine.