So yeah, I have wrote this thread because I want some answers/perspective as to how I should improve this now terrible state of affairs where I have had zero experience with girls.
I just turned 22 recently entering my final year of university where the workload means I have to work long hours on what is a very demanding subject.
I am by no means a physically unattractive guy. I have a good sense of style and I'm not ugly so that is not too bad on that regard.
But, I must admit, my social skills suck. My flatmate who is also my friend puts it down to the fact that i have very little charisma and i'm boring (she was telling me honestly because i asked her).
I want to work on it, but I am just ****ing scared of getting rejected. Sometimes I go to clubs with my mates , and the girls look at me like 'Wtf? Ewww, get away from me'.
Furthermore, I do get racist idiots saying **** like bruce lee at me all of the time, but i am used to that and just amog them back. Because the thing is, I look and talk like a normal guy and I don't really appear weak... I am fine in that regard because I am quite mentally tough. I do come across a lot of aggressive/racist idiots, but tbh, I am fine because having been bullied before in high school, I learnt to really toughen up and start defending myself.
My problem with women, however, has caused me to be very frustrated with my life. Added with the fact that I am struggling to get a job even with good grades and experience, I just feel terrible. It is really a torment that occurs everyday in my mind, I see others pulling girls easily and I have been left behind.
Yes, I had a very conservative upbringing and wasn't allowed to go out and socialise at all until I was 18. I think that really stunted my development. Whereas my friends were allowed to go to the gym, play sports, go to parties and generally learn how to adapt to their changing lives, I was left behind and only started this stuff way later.
I think I can do well because girls do not find me hideous and I have found it alright flirting with them before. So, don't be mistaken, I am not some hideous repellant to girls. However, I think I need a direction and perspective.