Basically, I want to get the guy back I was kind of seeing. He was a really nice dude with great banter tbh and extremely good looking.. My insecurities got the best of me seeing as everyone I know in my life has lied to me at some point, twisted the truth or I have never had that constant stability in my life... I have now explained this to him and why I have been the way I am, even apologised to him and said I am ashamed of my behaviour and I am so sorry for pushing him away as well as telling him I am going to work on my issues onto being a better person - I have a feeling though I may have gave him the impression I never trusted him, which isn't true.. It just takes me time to trust someone :/ ... I then turned my phone off and planning on leaving it off for a while.. I have logged out of Facebook,twitter and deleted the apps because I know if I see him on social media - I will just get upset or I will keep looking at his profile... I even signed out of snapchat too... While I try and give him space for a bit in the hope he will actually miss me...
There is a story to this tbh while I was being like this with him... But it is a bit long winded.. If you wanna know, I will pm you.. I feel for now the best thing to do is give him his space however, I do own his jacket and hat and I feel I should give this back to him at some point.. Plus. I do feel like I should talk to him face to face to try and sort it out - even if we just remain as friends... I just know for now, probably give him some space for a few days :/....
I do really like him and I feel so bad for my issues affecting being with him.. I can get attached too easily and this has hit me hard - despite understanding it too... I was just wondering - if there is anyway I could possibly get him back?? I am hoping he will meet up with me or when I see him (he works at my local where I drink at) he will realise what he's missed (I plan on going to the gym and eating better - mind you, been only eating four chicken nuggets in a way)...
Any advice on anything I have said would be very helpful. Thanks (sorry for rambling on too)