this one's kinda stupid because i didnt even do badly lol, but i just cant get past this toxic mindset.
i got my results back and i achieved one 9, four 8s, one 7, two 6s and a BLOODY 5.
Ive never gotten a 5 before, but it was for ocr computer science which genuinely was the most disgusting paper ive ever sat.
Im pretty happy with most of my results, the 6s and 5 are just eating away at me. I feel so disappointed in myself its debilitating. Like everyone's so proud of me which is super kind but i just feel so underwhelmed and annoyed at myself. I was predicted mostly 9s. I came out with one 9. And a 5. It just feels so weird, everything I do now I just feel like i dont deserve it and that im stupid. and its so annoying because now these grades are mine for the rest of my life, and theyre way under what i could have achieved. i know i wont care about them in a year, but the self hatred and disgust is getting a lot.