Right, well, as it says in the title. I know Im overweight- my size 12 clothes have gotten tight, so Im pushing on for a size 14, at 5 foot 2. I'd say I've put on just under half a stone since I've been with my boyfriend.
The thing is, even before I got this bit bigger- I dont think he fancied me much then either. He does love me very much and I love him but Im so hurt over this because how can there be a future if he doesnt really like me in that way.
I always thought everything could be sorted out one way or another if a couple talked about it, so I have tried discussing it a fair few times (before I put on a few pounds too) and he says "your lovely as you are" and "if you want to lose weight yourself, you can do it" which is fine. But he never compliments me, or looks at me appreciatively. I can understand this, but other guys have been way more enthusiastic. I just wish if my boyfriend had never found me that attractive to begin with that he hadnt bothered staying with me because I am so hurt, because I want to be with someone who likes my body, but we love each other
Its not as simple as losing weight, because in the back of my mind I will always know that he had no interest in me at this size
He doesnt seem that bothered with having sex anymore, always preferring me to give him oral, and he doesnt want to return the favour, presumably because he thinks Im horrible. In the past he had a fantastic sex life with his ex, which I know because he let a few things slip, so its not like he has a low sex drive- its just me.
We really love each other but I dont know how to cope with this long term. Should I try talking again? What I really, honestly want to say to him is that he doesnt show any lust/hunger in his actions, or verbally, like my exes, but I cant say that because I think its really wrong to compare him to them...what should I say?