Awh thank you so much for your response, thats honestly so helpful!
I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one going through this, at least I'm not alone! I think thats my main issue I just felt so homesick, I was actually the only person from my friendship group at home to go to uni, so seeing them all at home made me feel really homesick too.
I agree with you completely that going the second time round, ill be more settled and mature too, I know what to expect and will feel a lot better. To be honest, I kinda feel like I rushed my choice too. I chose a course that wasn't really that interested in, kinda just went based off my a-levels. I think this time round I've taken the time to choose a course I'll enjoy a lot more and actually be interested in learning about.
I feel like going back is the right choice for me, sometimes I'll think 'I dropped out the first time because I wasn't committed to studying, is the same gonna happen again?'. The main two reasons I dropped out was because I didn't like the Course and I felt homesick. If I can sort those out the second time I'll feel a lot better. The uni, location and campus were all great, I honestly loved it there and its much better than my hometown. I'm in a sticky situation where im kinda in the middle between fresh start and picking up where I left off. I have the option of staying with my old flatmates. I still talk to them and they've even offered me to stay in their house next year, but I feel like its part of the experience staying in halls. I just hope I get the full experience if I go back. I think staying with first years is kinda sensible, It means I won't be isolated come my last year because my flatmates from this year wouldve finished uni, but staying with first years would mean we are in the same year. But at the same time I still talk to them all, I've been down to visit twice (which tbh I don't think did me well, it just made me miss it more and wanna stay) and honestly felt like I never left. At least if for whatever reason I don't get on with my new flatmates at least I have my flatmates from this year too to kinda fall back on. It is difficult because the idea of a complete fresh start doesn't sound awful, it basically removes the entire situation of what I just said.
I defo wanna go into things with an open mind this time, I keep comparing what my second time will be like and thinking 'theres no way it'll be as good as the first time' but for all I know it could be even better! I just need to remind myself that I'm happy to be away and made the right decision. Just need to remember that home is only a train ride away and I can go back whenever I feel.
I feel like I've made a huge step and just need to hope all things work out now, this has definitely helped me mature, and made me realise that going back to uni is the right choice for me. I defo think I'll be more confident to stick it out because I know its what I want.
Thank you again for taking the time to respond, its really helped settle me I feel much better.