Hi! I'm 19, and a guy.
Basically, I haven't got any proper mates.
When secondary school ended, everyone (except a few) seemed to all go off their own way.
Although I was left out sometimes, it was just down to me.
During my time at secondary school, I was bullied/teased about how I was. I've become more confident now, but I was quite a shy person in primary school. Going into Year 7, I was a fit person - I was always good at PE in primary, and I cycled for about an hour a day. Although I was fit, I was chubby. In secondary school, I was picked on a bit for that in the changing rooms in PE. I wasn't overweight, but someone who I considered a friend said to me "you're a bit big aren't you".
Something else I was bullied about was my height. I was probably about 5-6 inches smaller than everyone else. I'm 5ft 8" now, but I was small. I started developing a bit later too - my voice didn't break until the end of Year 10 - when everyone else's seemed to in Year 8/9.
But because I was picked on about my height, weight (until I became slim in Year 8), and my "squeaky" voice, I never went out with those I used to hang around with at secondary school. They used to invite me out, but because I just seemed a lot smaller, sounded younger, and looked younger, I always used to say no. They were all taller, looked older, and in Year 11, could pass as old enough to drink.
I always said no though, or made an excuse. Because of that, they never bothered asking me, and I don't see any of them now.
Then came the get a job, stay on at sixth form, or go to college choice. I went to a local college. I didn't know anyone at all there, but loved it. They were the best two years of my life ever. I grew in confidence, was never picked on or anything, the teachers were funny and really supportive and helpful in everything, and it was a fantastic course. A lot of the people on the course used to go out lots (with their own mates from previous schools/courses), but although they didn't with me, I still felt very happy.
I'm now at Uni... There is only 10 people in the group, and none of them go out. No one in the group goes out with anyone else in the group. The three people I always chat to, and laugh with, live too far away from the Uni to go out with me - I live about 10 miles North, they live 15 miles South.
The Uni summer break has been really long. I go back soon, but i've just felt so down this Summer. You see people uploading pictures of nights out on facebook, and I wish I could go out like that. I go out cycling with my cousin a lot and we get on really well, mainly because I can be funny, have a laugh, and be silly at times, but I want some mates.
I have a part-time job, but there are only work nights out around Christmas.
I've never touched a drop of alcohol, and I don't want to drink alcohol just to get so drunk I can't stand up like a lot of people my age do - just so they can upload embarrassing photos onto facebook/twitter.
But I do want mates who I can go out with - whether it's shopping, something sporty, cinema, or even Uni-related things.
Before Summer, us three/four main mates from the Uni group decided to go out somewhere. That never happened.
I still feel young, and apparently only look about 16, but I feel more confident, and want to do stuff!
What can I do?