Same situation. Long distance and holiday booked for three months time, I'm trying to think of a way I can get out of seeing him next weekend because I'm worried I'll say something I regret. He's trying a little more recently so part of me wants to use the holiday as a reason to give us a chance but he's really irritating me recently, it's weird but I feel like I just don't like him suddenly and the main problem is that I'm sat at a desk all day playing out scenarios of ending it in my head and figuring out the best way because he has depression, anxiety and is totally immature, I don't think I love him any more but I still care!
It's driving me crazy, I can't do this much longer.