My story is a bit complicated, I hope this is the right place to post it... people here seem to make rather short comments so I hope it's ok if I'll post a longish one...
My boyfriend (from Ireland) and I (from Germany) have been going out since February of 2010, at that time I lived in Ireland. In the summer I went back to Germany to study. He took a year out and did wwoofing (volunteering on farms etc) near where I study in winter and in spring started a volunteering sceme for 6 months in the city I live in. We were really looking forward to living in the same city (although it is a big city, so we were still 1 hour apart by public transport), but then it all didnt go too well, i dont know if it was because he didnt like his job or because I was worried about what I should do with my life too much, because I didnt like my uni course... we basically argued whenever we met, about stupid things most of the time.
Now its the time when he has to go back, he's gonna study in Scotland and the degree there takes 4 years. I'm afraid that the past 6 months are not a good basis to build an LDR on, because we just ddidnt have very many good times to remember, and I think he kind of lost faith in our relationship, he used to say, if you only want to you can make a relationship last even over long distance, but now he says he's not sure any more..
To make it even more complicated, I accepted an offer from a Uni in Scotland for a subject that really interests me. I'm now totally confused whether I shoul go there or not, to be honest, I feel like our relationship could do with some long distance, and he seems to be afraid that I decide for studying in scotland, because the same might happen (we might just argue all the time). At the same time, I know sitting here on my own without him is gonna kill me, especially the winters are so hard here and i tend to worry too much or get jealous, if he doesnt reply to my texts soon enough...
I'm now standing between two options:
staying here, finishing a course that is ok but not my favourite in a place that is not my favourite either; this will take 2 more years if I'm lucky (might take longer because i was quite lazy this semester) and hope the LDR will survive for that long.
OR going to scotland to this tiny town which is around 2 hours by public transport from the town he's gonna be in, study for another 4 years in a course that I am quite sure I'd enjoy, but at the risk that our relationship will be like it is now (not very nice).. plus, not to forget about the higher living costs in the uk compared to germany...
I dont know what to do, I sometimes lie awake for hours in the night because I cant stop thinking about this... and I have to decide soon!
I'm sorry to annoy you with such a long post, but I hope some of you have taken the time to read it... and maybe have some advice?!