hi all. for pretty much the entirety of my GCSE years i haven't studied. at the start, it was on purpose. i was lazy, and my mindset was "i'll do it later, when the exams are closer". my problem is that recently i've been suffering with memory loss, concentration issues, brain fog & something that stops me from reading? it's really hard to describe. i can't read long paragraphs, i get lost in the words, forget their meanings & once i finish reading, i forgot what i just read. i'm hoping you see the problem here. all revision i do is worthless. i can remember some things from school, pretty much only the basics. i can't even get checked out by a doctor. the waiting times are insane, especially for mental health / neurological issues. it's really saddening to know that the potential is there but i can't access it. being able to read a paragraph would be a huge accomplishment at this point. i have to break them down into small chunks. i'm really scared that i'm going to fail my GCSEs, and i think it's a fact that i'm going to fail. i'm trying to remain hopeful (for some reason?????) but i think my own brain set me up for failure. i applied for a college but i'd need to get 7 GCSEs to even be able to go there. we did some of our GCSEs in year 10, which was a bit weird. i got 2 C's and i was really happy about it. every other grade was lower than a C. i now see that in the real world, this was an awful achievement, and really, it shouldn't even be considered an achievement. i can't wait to be stuck living here working at mcdonalds to try and live a *****y life in a small apartment infested with bugs !!!!!! i love the education system!!!!!!!. it really is just one big memory test. i wish things were done differently. maybe if they based this off of intelligence instead of memory, i'd have a bright future, but for now all i have waiting for me is a depressing 9-5.
can anyone provide me with some advice on what to do when i fail my GCSEs. i don't want to live a *****y life like that.