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So, I was molested as a child, a young age in fact.
Realistically, 6 or 7 years old.
The act were dreadful, or in your opinion, foolish.
I was rather stupid to not say anything, to keep it quiet and it keep it hidden for as many years; it has been 7/8 years now.
So does this count as sexual harassment or...?
It was my cousin who actually...molested me.
He, uh, erm, fingered me (age/s stated above).
And no, it was not pleasant, it was unpleasant and very uncomfortable.
And he was 14/15 years old. Mean anything?
This act which had happened to me is revolting and I am in disgust.
I feel impure, and yes I did want to kill myself, I received suicidal thoughts.
I wanted to overdose myself, and I did but regretted it and spat it out.
I cannot even sleep, it keeps swirling back in my memories, flushing my mind with utter abhorrence.
I kept crying for endless days, that I maybe perceived as a 'slut.'
Yet I still do cry, but away from everyone; this is sometimes, not all the time.
I'm 14 now.
My parents and sisters do not know of this, only brothers, but I feel as if i'm hiding a great lie from them.
What do I do?
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(Original post by inachigeek21)
So, I was molested as a child, a young age in fact.
Realistically, 6 or 7 years old.
The act were dreadful, or in your opinion, foolish.
I was rather stupid to not say anything, to keep it quiet and it keep it hidden for as many years; it has been 7/8 years now.
So does this count as sexual harassment or...?
It was my cousin who actually...molested me.
He, uh, erm, fingered me (age/s stated above).
And no, it was not pleasant, it was unpleasant and very uncomfortable.
And he was 14/15 years old. Mean anything?
This act which had happened to me is revolting and I am in disgust.
I feel impure, and yes I did want to kill myself, I received suicidal thoughts.
I wanted to overdose myself, and I did but regretted it and spat it out.
I cannot even sleep, it keeps swirling back in my memories, flushing my mind with utter abhorrence.
I kept crying for endless days, that I maybe perceived as a 'slut.'
Yet I still do cry, but away from everyone; this is sometimes, not all the time.
I'm 14 now.
My parents and sisters do not know of this, only brothers, but I feel as if i'm hiding a great lie from them.
What do I do?

Hi,
I'm so sorry that you post hasn't yet received a response, I know it must have been extremely difficult for you to write about your experience. Jo has been away from the site recently but will be responding to you as soon as possible.
In the meantime if you are feeling overwhelmed or thinking about hurting yourself you might find it helpful to call the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90.
I hope this helps,
QC
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Hi
I am so sorry for the delay in replying - I have had some health issues and was unable to reply.

You have been really brave to post about something so traumatic. What you describe is definitely sexual assault. It must have been very scary and I am not surprised it is still affecting you. You are absolutely not a slut, this was not your fault. Someone older than you took advantage of you and assaulted you and the responsibility lies solely with them.

You said that you attempted suicide, was this recently or when the assault happened? The sleep problems and memories you are experiencing are due to post traumatic stress and are a normal response to severe trauma.
If you feel suicidal again I really want you to talk to either the Samaritans as QC said or Papyrus (they specialise in helping young people who feel like this)
https://www.papyrus-uk.org/
0800 068 41 41
Mon-Fri 10:00 am to 10:00 pm
Weekends 2:00 pm to 5:00 pm.

In terms of dealing with what actually happened there is a brilliant organisation called rape crisis who can help. They have a special page on their website for 14-17 year olds who have been raped or assaulted. This info will hopefully help you, and at the end of the page there is a link for how you can contact them.

http://www.rapecrisislondon.org/cont...4-17-year-olds


You do not have to cope with this alone.
It is good that your brothers know, have they been supportive? Do you feel able to tell your parents? You can also talk to your doctor or get some counselling. There is a lot of support for you to recover and to not be controlled by what happened. Remember, you did nothing wrong and you are not on your own.

take care
Jo
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