I'm literally days away from my first GCSE exam and I feel like I don't know a thing!!!
I'm the kind of person who wakes up tired, a "glass half-full" type girl who has a negative outlook on the world. I never seem to get enough sleep and I feel very depressed.... Not sure if that is the cause of my problems, but who knows?
Anyway...I'm starting my GCSEs in two days time and I honestly think I'm going to fail. As a high-achiever in Primary School, I feel like I'm being put under way too much pressure by my school, my family and even the Government.
These new GCSEs are graded on percentages, not marks, which makes me even more worried! I can't seem to keep my focus and I'm so so tired all of the time. I'm irritable, grouchy, angry and I really do feel like I can't keep going.
Some of my teachers (especially Science and Spanish) haven't even finished the curriculum! I have to teach myself several topics for my GCSEs now!
It's taking all of the will-power and self-motivation I have right now to not give up right here... I am just centimetres away from completely giving up all together.
I just want to relax, but that's never going to happen. I don't even get a proper Study Leave at my school either, only three days before my last GCSE on the 15th June.
Honestly....I can't keep going. I started my schooling as a confident and outgoing kid with big dreams to get amazing grades in all my exams and be a Vet or a Doctor or a Director... now I'm going to leave as an anxious, depressed and lonely teenager with such a bad opinion of herself that she cannot even look in the mirror without thinking "My God... what a disgrace you are..."
I just need some advice...anyone got anything to help me?