rejected from doing illustration at york st john in york 😭😭😭😭😭

Oh I don't know anything about your courses, but didn't want to read your post and run without leaving a comment. Can you take a gap year and reapply? Is there really such a difference between your ideal #1 choice and the others (there may be, so I'm not saying there isn't - I'm just curious if it's true or if there's any room for thinking differently about your offers?)

i’m just very conflicted as york st john was the only uni i really extremely wanted to go to 💔 i’m also quite shocked that i got straight up rejected, i was so happy that i was called for an interview. 3/5 of the unis i applied for all gave me unconditional offers, with the exception of one uni which gave me a conditional offer and did not even request for my portfolio. it’s just quite jarring and sudden with the previous positive responses i got but i understand that different universities function differently and may have different expectations in the work they would like their students to produce. i’m really regretting everything sm now like i had a stack of sketches (of the type of art they probably preferred) i was planning to bring but then decided last minute not to because i didn’t like them enough & the interviewer asked if i had anymore work i could show them 😭😭 i messed up on some of the interview questions as well because i was so nervous and i have a speaking difficulty 😭😭😭😭 i dont know what to do anymore. i am very grateful and privileged that i’ve been given unconditional and conditional offers from other unis but i really didnt want to go to any of them and only applied to them as they were the only options i could’ve went to as a last resort. i just feel so dejected and useless right now 😭 i completely don’t know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 i hope everyone else has managed to get offers in the uni they wanted to go to 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭