I keep having nightmares about my last history exam...they're always similar. Two nights ago, I dreamt that I'd only done an evening's worth of intensive revision before my last exam (which is not true, I had three whole days to rewrite my notes and do past papers)
And it's just really getting to me.
I'm so worried that I haven't got into the sixth form that all of my friends are going to (because if I get a b in one of my a level subjects, I'm not allowed in, as it's a grammar school)
Realistically, I know that I prepared for all my exams the best that I could, but what if it wasn't enough? History's my worst subject because although I love the content, the exams **** me sideways. And if I've got a B in either biology or chemistry, I may as well just off myself because that's my entire life plan scuppered, as I want to do Biology at university (and then maybe a postgrad in medicine at some point)
Worst of all, if I don't get into that school, I'll have to go to my local college, with my piece of **** ex best friend and the awful girl I used to fancy (I mean awful. She cheats on her boyfriend all the time and has forbidden anybody from telling him and I'm super scared about seeing her again because I think I still like her).
I know nobody will reply to this thread (and I'm not looking for attention or anything, I swear), but writing down my feelings is making me feel better in some way. So. Yeah.