I just recently started college after an uneventful summer and thought I would really enjoy it. I struggle with anxiety so I knew the first few days would seem quite daunting, but I figured that I would settle in and begin to enjoy it after a while.
However this didn't happen, and now even the thought of college makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. I took Maths, Further Maths, Physics and Psychology - believing that I wanted to pursue Physics in the future - but the only subject I'm actually enjoying at the moment is Psychology, which I wasn't even considering continuing after A-levels. I've suddenly realised that I have no idea what I want to do in future but am being forced to decide now, and I just don't know what to do.
I loved most of high school and was always an excellent student, but now I struggle not to cry in lessons and have even considered skipping class because I dread it so much. I have zero motivation to study outside of class and am therefore falling behind after just a couple of weeks.
I think I might be depressed so I'm going to the doctors soon, but I also have no idea how to tell my parents or my college. I struggle to even see my high school friends anymore because of our differing timetables and other friends that they've made. My classmates all seem friendly but i just can't seem to start any meaningful, enjoyable conversations with them.
I have no clue what I should do: should I drop or switch a subject to something new (I hate Further Maths and my Physics teacher) or should I stick it out to see if I still dislike them when my mental health improves? Heeeelp!