Ok... I've just been strolling through this forum and I've always wanted to post but never had the courage to. Not being an over-confident jerk, but I think I may be able to be of some support to people so i just want to give a little background info.
I've had anorexia nervosa since around 16 years old (i'm now 21) and I've been hospitalised twice because of it - which I am not proud of, but I've accepted that it's what I've needed.
After years of self-hatred, issues with food, self-esteem problems, depression, severe loneliness and anxiety I am really proud to admit that I'm at a stage in my life where I'm at a healthy weight, loving myself and my body and able to eat and enjoy myself without worries and fears and have got my life back on track.
My first hospitalisation was at 18 and it wasn't particularly successful and ended up with me going back into hospital just over one year after. I am not going to say what my BMI was (BMI should not determine an eating disorder - your mental state should!!) but on my 2nd hospitalisation I had liver and kidney failure and was not allowed to move from my bed for 3 days straight. Realising how close to death my eating disorder had made me scared the living **** out of me and since that time I made sure that I would do everything I could to overcome this poop illness!
Recovery has not come without it's issues - it's been 2 years since I first went into hospital and I still have some wobbly moments but with determination I am at a COMPLETELY different mental state. I am actually now studying to become a dietitian because the one I had at hospital helped me so much that she has inspired me and to become a dietitian I need to pass an occupational health test to make sure that I have a healthy mental state so this is a test of just how far I've come.
I just wanted to say that recovery is possible and is worth every freaking tear, struggle, pain, wobble, worry, panic and shear dreadful moments in order to get there. I can't tell you how much happier and bubblier I am now. I've got life and laughter now. The biggest thing I learnt about how to recover to just to simply... STICK WITH IT! PESEVERE!
Keep reminding yourself of why you are fighting... for me it was about getting a career, getting my life back, getting periods back, being social again and wanting to do it for my family.
I don't want to go into too much detail and become a total bore for people on here but I just feel so passionately about this and just want to offer any help and support I can because I've been through it. If anybody wants to message me for anything then please feel free. I am here to support - which to be honest it seems like most people on here are for as well which is lovely to see. I'm not trying to say I know everything and I have the magic cure but I just want people to know that I'm here!