Younger sister has been picking fault and has been a bitch to me the past 2 days. Today we had a stupid fight over my xbox and me a) wanting to play it before I left her with it again and b) me not wanting a vicious little bitch to play with my things. Somehow it escalated and she threatened to punch me. Knowing it's impossible to hurt her (she's always in fights and I'm the little delicate one or something) and said it was pointless to even try to punch her because she's too stupid and feel pain. I said I'd embarrass her on Facebook again (she stopped talking to me for a week after people found out her real name after I called her on really awful cyber bullying). She then flew at me hands raised and just kept screaming at me.
Somehow I ended up ducking out of the way of her punch and ended up on top of her with my arm across her throat.
My parents ripped us apart, shouted at us both and I ended up storming out in the rain for about 30 minutes until I couldn't stay out much longer without ruining my stupid laptop because my bag was so wet.
I'm now home and she's stormed out. I was already feeling stupidly delicate and my dad is all lovely towards her and is ignoring my existence. They've spent the past week bitching about the stuff I bought home with me when I came back for Easter. It's like they have an amazing ability to make me feel unwanted while making her out to be some special magic flower where in fact she's on the dole, is a complete inconsiderate moron and just goes out looking for fights.
All they do to me is mock me for being at university, probably never getting a job and it's just stupid that even at the age of 25 I'm still treated like a small child.
I'm just a shaking, whimpering and soggy mess and I missed an online meeting I really need to attend and I'm just stuck here. Really wishing I could disappear. I'll never be anything to them and I'll never make them proud.