So I'm not exactly sure what it is but I haven't been feeling like myself since year 10. It was since I fell out (by choice) with my friends who I have known for 4 years, but whenever I was around them in year 10 they just made me feel uneasy, annoyed, awkward and really depressed. Also this was during the time when I was taking my exams early, and I kept on having breakdowns all the time thinking about I was gonna fail in life, never get a job, be a dissapointment to my family and be homeless and all those type of thoughts. Sometimes I thought that I might as well just kill myself, but I didn't and I've never self harmed. Now I'm in year 11 and since then I've got new friends, who actually care about me and its wonderful. But sometimes I can't help but feel down sometimes but usually it's by the littlest things. Whenever I argue with my sister or my mum I just feel like running up into my room and break down crying thinking about how my life is a failure. I'm not sure why my arguments trigger this sometimes because it's just normal sibling fights and normal arguments anyone would have with their mum. But it's seriously crazy because after I've had the break down (after a few hours) I feel fine, I know what I want to do with my life and how I'm going to achieve my dream job. I know I want to be a writer, I've already got an idea for a book and I've started writing it, so I don't see what's the problem
So am I depressed or just being a real wimpy over dramatic teenager?