HI
ok so basically i'm struggling, really struggling.
my coursework deadline is tomorrow which means I have about 7 hours to do this and i have so much to do it's actually insane and i haven't done anything bc i don't seem to care if i fail bc i don't care about life enough.
i will honestly get a really **** grade for my sketchbook if i don't do this
it's worth 60% of my overall grade.
i obviously don't want a **** grade
but right now its like i don't care and i'm so accepting of it
i'm so accepting of defeat
i am just feeling very very bad at the moment
but i know once i'm feeling better then i WILL care and i'll hate myself for it
i'm actually being so awful to myself bc i've worked so ridiculously hard to get where i am and it's like i'm throwing it all away
half of me is crying for me to just do something and the other, more dominant half does not give a damn and is overwhelming me through their lack of care for my future
i can't find any reason to actually want to care about this
i give 0 ****s
ZERO
but i'm not doing this for present me
please can i have encouragement, i don't want to be regretful of something i could've changed
i will regret this so much
i know i will, i know what i'm like
i can't get an extension or anything like that
i always wreck things for myself and i really don't want to be that person anymore
i'm so desperate tsr
be the supportive student forum i know you can be
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