Nothing left to aay
Hey, I’m new here. Sorry if what I’m going to say might sound inappropriate. I have been hesitating for months wether if I should post this or not, but it’s happening anyway. Sorry again if the post seem messy. I just can’t prioritise my thoughts rn.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
Original post by Anonymous
Hey, I’m new here. Sorry if what I’m going to say might sound inappropriate. I have been hesitating for months wether if I should post this or not, but it’s happening anyway. Sorry again if the post seem messy. I just can’t prioritise my thoughts rn.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
Sorry to say this but I think you should go to your GP and seek advice from them. Also you should speak to your parents as they are not aware about how you feel and think.
it sounds to me like you are at a real low rn, and have been for a while. IrishIssac is right, look into getting professional help in the matter. you should open up to someone. best of luck
I'm not gonna beat around the bush: I think you need to open up to your family, and tell them how you're feeling so that they can support you and ensure you get professional help. I know that's difficult as hell, and in your case it'll be much harder than anything i've personally faced, but just having them aware of the situation and on your side will be a great relief.
The problem you might be facing is whether your brain in it's depressed state is seeing things correctly. While I'm by no means a therapist (hell, i'm currently failing my A-level in psychology), I can tell you that depression can lead things to be seen in Black and White, where things are either Great or ****ing TerribleTM. All I can say is please talk to others, hell even those you think are talking s*** behind your back may not be doing so. I'm not saying they aren't, because god only knows you've got a lot more going on than me, but all i'm asking is that you keep an open mind.
The problem you might be facing is whether your brain in it's depressed state is seeing things correctly. While I'm by no means a therapist (hell, i'm currently failing my A-level in psychology), I can tell you that depression can lead things to be seen in Black and White, where things are either Great or ****ing TerribleTM. All I can say is please talk to others, hell even those you think are talking s*** behind your back may not be doing so. I'm not saying they aren't, because god only knows you've got a lot more going on than me, but all i'm asking is that you keep an open mind.
Original post by IrishIssac
Sorry to say this but I think you should go to your GP and seek advice from them. Also you should speak to your parents as they are not aware about how you feel and think.
Thanks for replying, but seeking a professional help is just hard, specially for me, I’d be so ashamed if I did. Tho Ik it’s normal. But things are hard for me
Original post by Anonymous
it sounds to me like you are at a real low rn, and have been for a while. IrishIssac is right, look into getting professional help in the matter. you should open up to someone. best of luck
Got no one.
Original post by ThePootisPower
I'm not gonna beat around the bush: I think you need to open up to your family, and tell them how you're feeling so that they can support you and ensure you get professional help. I know that's difficult as hell, and in your case it'll be much harder than anything i've personally faced, but just having them aware of the situation and on your side will be a great relief.
The problem you might be facing is whether your brain in it's depressed state is seeing things correctly. While I'm by no means a therapist (hell, i'm currently failing my A-level in psychology), I can tell you that depression can lead things to be seen in Black and White, where things are either Great or ****ing TerribleTM. All I can say is please talk to others, hell even those you think are talking s*** behind your back may not be doing so. I'm not saying they aren't, because god only knows you've got a lot more going on than me, but all i'm asking is that you keep an open mind.
The problem you might be facing is whether your brain in it's depressed state is seeing things correctly. While I'm by no means a therapist (hell, i'm currently failing my A-level in psychology), I can tell you that depression can lead things to be seen in Black and White, where things are either Great or ****ing TerribleTM. All I can say is please talk to others, hell even those you think are talking s*** behind your back may not be doing so. I'm not saying they aren't, because god only knows you've got a lot more going on than me, but all i'm asking is that you keep an open mind.
Thanks for replying, I have had anxiety for years and I have tried several times to talk to my family about it, they couldn’t care less about anything I said, and the only thing I got was “You’re overstressing and overthinking things, you won’t be even able to live that way”. Thanks Mams and Paps. Seeking a professional help isn’t as easy as you really think. Specially when I can’t talk to people irl. I find it hard to talk to my family anyway. There is no point
Original post by Anonymous
Hey, I’m new here. Sorry if what I’m going to say might sound inappropriate. I have been hesitating for months wether if I should post this or not, but it’s happening anyway. Sorry again if the post seem messy. I just can’t prioritise my thoughts rn.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
Everything seems to be messed up for me. I’m a student. I’m studying something I dislike, Ik some would wonder why I didn’t change studies.. it’s because my family made me study this. I have tried to talk to them several times to change studies but they never listen and always mock what I’m saying so I gave up. I literally dk what’s going on with my life now, but it’s screwed up. I don’t have any friends. I’ve been told alot that joining university would make me make friends but that wasn’t true at all. It’s my second year, I barely talk to anyone. I’m one of the most despised students in my uni tho I’ve never hurt or cause trouble to anyone. I have always been the despised one in my school since I joined. It’s just normal. Got few colleagues that talk to me, but obviously can’t call them friends; as they only hmu or call when they need something. They exploiting me clearly and I can’t do anything toward it. They hate me, but they want something from me. That’s why they didn’t cut me off. I didn’t have friends in school. I literally got no friends irl and I couldn’t make friends. My family say I’m introvert, Idk if I’m. Everything seems wrong with me. I don’t have any interests or hobby even these things I used to enjoy, no longer entertains me and I find no reason doing them anymore. Nothing seems to interest me at all. I did bad in my school that’s why I couldn’t join or study what I wanted. I’m screwed up physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally. My family think I’m a psycho and they want me to check a psychiatrist. It’s just because they find me weird sitting all alone all the time, doing nothing. They dislike how I never hang out with friends( tho I have none) but I myself don’t like or enjoy going out. I lost all my dreams and all of them are now unachievable. Idk what to do. My family don’t care at all about me. I have only one sibling who doesn’t acknowledge me anyway. My family don’t care about how I’m feeling nor how I’m doing, they only care about grades and all what they want is for me to graduate so they wouldn’t feel bad about me later. I have been feeling horrible for many years rn. I have tried to talk to colleagues but as I said none is my friend, I couldn’t have anyone to talk to irl, so I went for online friends. I tried to talk to online people but none of them seems interested in my as I’m interested in them. Specially when they know how much of a f**k up I’m. I have talked to girl online and she only cut me off after telling her about myself. I have many regrets. And the reason for all that is my family. They are the reason why I’m like this. I have been feeling lonely lately, but I like being by myself. I don’t enjoy anyone’s company at all. I have tried to socialise and have few friends, but none seems to accept me. Even my family don’t like how I’m. I could see my father looking at someone’s child someone and just start saying “how lucky their parents are to have such child, because they talk to their parents. And they like their parents unlike you” and my mom doesn’t say it, but I could see it in her eyes when she looks at her friend’s children. I feel bad. My family think I dislike them because I don’t say I love them or whatever. The way I talk as well makes them feel that I hate them when I really don’t hate them, at least my mom. My father screwed my life up. All my colleagues have SO’s but not me. Ngl I have given up the idea of having a SO since Ik how f**ked up I’m. Being in a relationship isn’t on my priority list anymore. Ik some would say I should give it a try. I’m not good at talking. But I have tried 9 times to talk to girls I were into and I got rejected 9 times. Even these girls who I was into, were only into my colleagues or mates. Every girl I talk to always cut off because I’m messed up. I have tried to talk online to girls, but I only got that “you’re reserved” or “you’re boring” and some only used me to help them to get to other guys. I’m not attractive, I’m not fit nor physically nice. My appearance sucks. My personality sucks. Even my sense of humour is below zero. Whenever I try to talk to any girl online, I don’t have much to say.. (None would accept me irl). Even my colleagues say I’m quiet and boring. They also say I’m not good at talking or starting a conversation with any girls. I literally give up. Sorry if this sounds whiny or overdramatic. I just can’t help it.. I can’t even get the fact that I’m so f**ked up. My fam gonna make me go to another university, which I don’t want to. But they will do it anyway. I couldn’t find any solution for any of these. Right now. I got none. Just alone. And Ik these colleagues gonna end up calling when they need something. I don’t want to help any of them because they exploiting me. But I just can’t help it. I’m fragile and everything I try to do, ends up in a messy way. I regret literally everything I do.
Sorry if I said too much. Idk why I even said any of these, knowing it won’t help at all.
I can’t even think how difficult it must be for you. I also have issues with my parents, we simply don’t click together but I have friends I can turn to, when you have problem with your family you seem to turn towards your friends. Are you sure you don’t have any friend you can talk to? A childhood friend or a cousin or anyone that you think would listen to you?
Original post by mnaureen
I can’t even think how difficult it must be for you. I also have issues with my parents, we simply don’t click together but I have friends I can turn to, when you have problem with your family you seem to turn towards your friends. Are you sure you don’t have any friend you can talk to? A childhood friend or a cousin or anyone that you think would listen to you?
Nope not really
