I had this big plan to start a HNC in Art & Design, then go and study interior design at university.
I blew my plan up in my face.
All I need to do is write a stupid personal statement, then my journey to a happy life and exciting career will begin. But I can’t. No matter how much I plan what to write, I can’t bring myself to write what I need to get into university.
Even if I did manage to come up with a personal statement, I’d still have to create a portfolio to prove I’m good enough to study the subject (which I’m not). I can’t even draw! Sure I can learn, but tbh I’ve gotten to a point in my young life where I just can’t be bothered anymore. 9 months to complete a HNC to get into uni...? Dream on.
I just feel like my life is f*cked either way and I’m scared that if I do try to succeed then I’ll end up failing anyway. I can’t set myself up for failure like that, it just doesn’t make sense.
I know that I’m overthinking everything and assuming the worst, but think of it this way- if I can’t even write a personal statement then there’s no way I’m going to be able to get through uni anyway. So what’s the point in even trying?
I don’t know exactly what the point of my post is today or what answers I’m looking for, I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest.
I just wish I didn’t get so overwhelmed by everything.