GENERAL
Hi, I have several mental health issues too. When I was in year 12 I had a really bad period of my life, I have not been diagnosed with depression but I felt so low that I could not revise, think straight, I was just empty which went on for months, I was diagnosed with an ED as well.
ADVICE
During year 13, I told myself that I needed to revise, get through A-levels and push myself so that I could show myself I was capable. Now im going to university I am so motivated, I know you must be really struggling and im sorry. I try and make time for me to do things I enjoy so that I feel good and feel more motivated. Once I started getting into fitness, I had an hour 5x a week to focus on myself and push myself. I mean, I would also try some other hobbies.
What I loved at A-level was using these videos called 'real time study with me' where you can watch someone study. I would put them on my screen so I could see them revise, and when I looked up it motivated me to keep going. Once you get into a routine I promise you it will get easier. I created a small timetable where I would leave slots for studying, working out, hobbies etc and I could see what I had planned for the day. This meant that I knew what I could be doing, what I would be studying etc so that I would just do it without having to decide what to do on the spot. I also use an app called forest, if you go off of the app it kills a fake tree. Cause i'm a perfectionist I hated seeing the trees die, it reminded me that I gave up, so I make sure they don't.
Please know that you can do this, this is your time to do well and prove to yourself that you can do it. When I have bad days, and I used to have a lot of them due to bullying years ago, I now journal on my phone and vent to myself. I then think about what I could do to make myself feel better.
Good luck, I hope your mental health improves to some degree.