I know it’s hard, but you should definitely look on the bright side. Look how strong you’ve been these past years! Just be happy in the moment, as you still have a loving support base around you, and that won’t go away unless you want it to.
I hope you are okay, i’m not a counsellor or therapist but I hope I have somewhat eased your worries. If you are feelign really anxious, I would highly recommend seeing a healthcare professional. <3