I feel like my ability is completely ruined in exams, I end up barely sleeping the night before an exam and make so many mistakes.
Nobody takes me seriously about this in real life because I've been consistently getting A/A* in my subjects, they think I'll get the best grades anyway. I don't like talking about it because it just makes others feel worse and I'm sure they think I'm spouting bs to make them feel better.
I was really hoping to get an A* in maths, paper 1 was relatively nice but I was so nervous I couldn't think straight for a lot of it and I know I did so much worse than I should have. Most people found it easy, and now I feel like my chances are down the drain and grade boundaries will skyrocket. I can do past papers at home by myself quite easily but the real exams just ruin me entirely, especially for maths I don't know what it is about that subject. Whenever we do group maths work I do so much worse as well, which means I'm pretty much useless in any real world scenario. I also constantly feel like I must be studying but I am not doing much any more though I know it is the only way I can fix this.
I need 3 As for my uni choice and getting into it is the only way I can see myself having a chance of ever being happy. Idk what I'm gonna do. I will end up letting everyone down because literally everyone (including my teachers) thinks I will just easily do great. I don't expect to get anything out of posting this I just want to put it out there and not be immediately told everything will be fine because someone thinks I'm good at everything when I'm not.