I live in a shared house with my uni mates .Basically I have a dairy which I write in wen I’m going through a rough time , it had thoughts about my housemates that weren’t rood but when I was having a bad day I would overthink and vent it out e.g they hate me , although I’ve never had an argument with them and genuinely do appreciate them and have shared a lot of moments with them , at the time I was jus going through a lot and I knew it was a me problem hence why I wrote it down and 30 mins later after I wrote it down I realised it was just my mind and those thoughts dissipated. More importantly The dairy also has personal secrets and battles I’ve been facing all my life that NOBODY knows about . 5-6 months I left the house from Nottingham to catch the train in a rush, I wasn’t sure whether I locked the bedroom door, my fLatmates have snooped and have done so with our other housemates on multiple occasions infront of me and so ik if I had left my door open they would read it . Wen I went bac I was sneaking in as it was late and didn’t wanna wake anyone , I was so focused on not making a sound that idk how I got into my room which begs the question DID I LOCK MY DOOR OR NOT.it’s been eating me up inside and they have been distant with me all summer , taking weeks to reply, not only do I feel guilty but I feel so violated evry day for the past 6 months the thought has been running through my head and it had affected my wellbeing, what do I do how do I let this go .should I ask them . I can’t sleep , I can’t eat .
Any help appreciated