Big hugs for you xoxo!! I'm so sorry you feel that way. Seasonal depression is the worst and I had it in Summer of 2021 and from personal experience (I ignored it and turned it chronic ) if you feel like you need help GO FOR IT. THERE IS REALLY NO SHAME IN NEEDING HELP and if you have a nice boss they will keep it to themselves. If you get help it'll help in the long term too so DO NOT BE LIKE ME and please get to therapy if you need it. Hope you feel better soon :^)))