Specifically, I'm not sure what others expect from me, and I worry they might expect too much and end up disappointed. I'm not sure where this feeling comes from.
Maybe I've let down too many people in my life. In fact I think it happened so often (my brain can't think of any scenarios right now) that I no longer even care, but I still care that people might feel bad because of my actions. I don't want that.
For example I pursued some studies at school, but decided to do something else. I still think my parents are left disappointed, and yet I also realize that my parents probably couldn't care less as long as I'm happy... and it's my life anyways, right?
Right now I'm planning a trip with a friend, I already told him to have no expectations of me and to plan as if I'm not with him (way before the trip), but maybe he counts with me and I will ruin his plans?
It's strange, because if my friend did that to me I would be totally cool with it, I mean even if he didn't told me, I'm pretty adaptable person, but I also know some people get very ****ed or anxious if someone would do this to them.
What are your thoughts?