This is so hard to write and I feel very out of my mind but I need to seek some advice. I have been having a panic attack and anxiety thinking about doing exams which are in a couple of months and the person marking and observing me being one of my lecturers. This lecturer is attractive and it is making me really lose focus and thinking of the exams crumbling around me.
I don't know what to do and I am dreading exam time because of how anxious this is making me. I have cried and lost sleep over this, my mental health has been awful and I've been through different therapists but for this but I don't know what to do, and what help to seek. They're really kind and sweet and that makes this so much more difficult for me to perform the best I can. They gave us a test one time recently and my hands we're shaking trying. I'm so mad at myself and I can't shake this off. I know it sounds silly. Any advice is appreciated.