You can take control of this if you really want to - When someone has been such a support and that support has stopped you are understandably feeling that loss. The sense that the support you found so useful has gone is quite profound. You are allowed to be upset because that represents the value you found in that emotional bond. Now take everything you gained from those sessions and hold them all close to your heart. There will be more encounters like that as you go forward. You won't lose anything from the counselling you had and from which you have gained. Learn from the discovery and understanding you made about yourself and how you habitually react to disappointment or loss. If you have a lasting goal and memory for the hard work and connection you gained with your counsellor it will be that you are determined to use everything you learned in those sessions and to make use of that learning in your day to day living. There will be more good people in your life, more connections with positive influences as you go forward in life. You are at the junction of allowing yourself to staying positive or let it all go. Why? Why would you allow your head to be so negative when you had started to turn that around? You can change your mind set with practice and stop your negative dialogue. Part of staying in a negative void may be a familiar way of managing the loss you experience in life generally. Do something different now you have a few emotional tools to learn how to change. Make 2024 a positive year where you start to believe your life can be different and more fulfilling. In between access the help you believe you need but slipping back into a negative mindset is not a good use of your time. Only you can change the dialogue in your head just now. Take the good, use it well and stay focussed on positive statements.