I spent more than four and a half hour sat at my desk daydreaming.
I intended to study, but i couldn’t because daydreaming felt more comfortable and safer than learning. So i just sat there daydreaming, and kept telling myself ‘i’ll start now’ except i never start.
I also feel very anxious and incompetent and almost always have panic attacks when studying, and when i dont i am killing myself with the crippling fear of the intense fear rush that comes with panic attacks and just scare myself with the possibility of it and stop studying.